heartbreak never looked so good
step by step ep 10
The effort and courage it took for Jeng to confess because he's sure that Pat has misinterpreted him, the way he had to close his eyes and couldn't pause... but also how Pat is constantly checking over his shoulder. Constantly making sure no one is looking.
My heart started breaking right here because Pat's face is shock and fear and disbelief and not in the way you want when someone confesses to you.
It's the way Jeng closes his eyes both times he confesses, the way he can't even speak and look at the same time.
Broken.
But what a heartbreaking response, for both Pat and Jeng. Because does like Pat and he could list a thousand reasons but this rejection strikes to the core of him because it's personal. This isn't Pat turning him down, this is Pat literally saying that there is no way Jeng could actually like him. That there is no way that Jeng's feelings are real. And after the entire time leading up to this being Pat rejecting all of Jeng's usual attempts to help or show care... it's like watching someone's shatter in real time.
And then this line did me entirely. Telling Jeng to go back to work. Pat means it differently, means it as another measure of his disbelief and his inability to accept Jeng's feelings... but how many people tell Jeng to focus on work. How much of Jeng's life has been pushed to the side for the sake of work? He's literally working two full time jobs right now and one with his disapproving father and now the person he loves, the person who convinced him to do better at work and at balancing work and life... that person is telling him to just get back to work.
I absolutely understand Pat here and this is not a criticism of him but this is just... no wonder Jeng shatters.
And he shatters hard.
I deeply appreciate siblings this week.
alles-gutt